Space 4 U. Just Me

For you, I hold space.

I know what it is to finally allow yourself grace.

To be adamant about nurturing yourself in effort to meet the moment

when it comes,

because, it is coming.

The moment,

is closer than you think.

Even though it seems so far away.

In solitude, you meet yourself again.

And explore those important magnificent parts that you have suppressed.

Self-preservation required suppression.

Evolving into yourself requires exploration.

Exploration of ways to release.

For you to unclench jaws, open your chest, and relieve the tension that comes from holding tight to principles, independence, thoughts, people, places, and ideas that no longer serve.

Relinquish ideologies meant to keep you sane. Safe. Something like happy.

Until.

You looked safety/peace in her face.

A place of solace that your soul remembers and your mind rejects.

It does not resemble what you’ve been conditioned to believe

in.

Which has kept you out.

For good reason, it could have been immensely enjoyable.

Albeit, brief and damaging.

Leaving you with a feeling of illogical comfort in surroundings that only make do.

You have reached a crossroads where enough, quite frankly, is enough.

The space in which you reside no longer suits your needs.

You are releasing & clearing space.

Making room for those gifts that God has for you.

Your heart’s desire.

And his will.

So you may exalt his name.

It is work.

Navigating a space that is often lonely.

Obnoxious with its darkness and awkward needs.

Solitude is tolerable until it isn’t.

When partnership’s absence vibrates your whole being, you face it gracefully, reluctantly.

Cuffing season soon come

& there’s an event you want to attend.

With your person.

Where are they?

This separation must be endured.

It is imperative that you complete the task that God has given you.

Make whole the vessel he has gifted to this world.

In completion, you will experience a sense of wholeness that is otherworldly because,

but God…

I hold a space for you, love.

Meeting a need that is hidden in plain sight.

Innate vision makes the need easy to recognize.

I hold space for you so you can continue to extend yourself grace.

I hold space for you to find the peace that you will carry always.

I hold space for you, so you may feel the love I have for you. Eternally.

I hold space for you in the moments of extreme solitude that feel oppressive and neverending.

I hold space for you because no one held it for me.

I hold space for you because, you are my responsibility.

I hold space for your evolution as you release those things that no longer serve.

I hold space for you as you explore what nurturing parts left neglected for self-preservation looks like.

I hold space for you to enjoy the moments, the wins, and the comfort that has been elusive during this period of reconnection.

I wear a talisman of double red string to signify strength and protection.

While I hold space, for you.